old art

during my computer crisis last month i was sad as i thought i had lost my entire portfolio (I used to draw and sell portraits of people, back in the day before i burned out)..but i was going through some of my old CD's and found a little bit of my stuff from high school- i am better now, but my new stuff is all in real form (this portrait above is the bane of my existence as it is huge, this is only a small portion and the only part i have left..i dont like the nose/eye area and the hair here, and it is cut off at an awkward place so it looks distorted ..anyway it is this huge creepy close up *assignment* that was hanging in the front of my high school for months and then my dad stole it and put it in the living room...i finally got him to at least move it to his office)
....and this is why i stopped..can you say obsessively anal and critical..i just cant stop nitpicking and changing everything i do, i now embrace my mediocrity..my mom always wanted me to be an artist, i just never had it in me..the portrait i did of her drove me to the brink..i am thinking about maybe starting up again, it has been 4 years since i've done a face..as a hobby

i dont know why i am posting it ..i guess i'm just excited that i found long lost stuff, what i do now is more of an evolution of this:


(It really is amazing how much shading is lost on the computer, there is a gentle shift btwn colors that is completely missed .its always amazing to see a piece in person..i could spend the rest of my life in art museums and never get bored..just let me have my ipod)